I haven’t done a heart felt post in a while so I thought I’d spend sometime tonight reflecting. The last number of months I have been brewing all things photography in my mind. Questions, thoughts, observations, it all runs through. And as I grow in my photography I am also seeing a paralleled growth in my personal life. As I question who am I in my art, I am questioning who I am in Christ. As I question my voice and what I am trying to say in my art, I am questioning what I am trying to say, how I say it and why I say things- am I being who I was meant to be- the real me– the person who is stripping away all the things who aren’t me? These are all questions I think we all struggle with at some point in our life. Whether it be life changes that bring it on or more awareness, I can’t quite put the finger on it. But I am growing in both my art and in my heart- and I am excited to see what is next.
And I yearn for more. I yearn to grow in my art and I seek to grow as a person. Photography has taught me many, many things but one thing that I keep coming back to is it has taught me to find the quiet moments. Whether it be in the way my child is colouring a picture or in the way a fern is uncurling, I am drawn to the quiet moments. I know that I am so drawn to peaceful, quiet moments is because my life is anything but peaceful and quiet. Life is chaotic for me right now. I am juggling too many hats and I feel like I am doing none of them well. And when life gets crazy and busy I seek solace in the quiet.
One place where I feel completely at peace and my soul feels right is in the end of the day. I love watching the sunset whether it be on a beach or from my back slider door window, I am drawn to it each night. It means a new day is coming- this one has been completed and no matter what has happened that day the sunset always brings beautiful peace. In my soul I feel drawn to sunsets, the artist in my soul is even more drawn to capture these sunsets. This summer was an incredible summer for sunsets. Here is a small glimpse into my soul.